A whole big dump of that white stuff came down on us yesterday. Chunks of it. It sure was pretty. Roads were a little challenging to say the least but the wonder of it all made up for it. I just love how all the sounds are muted when it snows like that. It’s like the whole world has a muffler. Somehow it feels so much more serene and peaceful than the usual harsh vibrating sounds which surround us. Everything changes.
I went to visit Mom yesterday as I do every third day or so. She sure has changed in the past little while. She wasn’t well over Christmas and it’s knocked her down a few more notches again. It’s so sad to see her. Sometimes, after I’ve said goodbye and I’m about to leave, I stand to the side and watch her and I feel the tears sting my eyes.
She is a prisoner in her own body, unable to move as she wants, unable to say what she wants, unable to wipe her nose or sit up straight and now sometimes even unable to chew. There’s an order now for the kitchen to send two trays for her, one of regular food and one with puree food. Yesterday I had to feed her the puree stuff. She could not manage the real food no matter how small I cut it up for her. I wish I could make things different for her. It’s doesn’t seem fair to end life that way.
Everything changes.
2 comments:
Your right Annette. Everything changes. The good things and the not so good things. Nothing stays the same for long. Beautiful snow!! I like what you said about it being a muffler bringing a softer silence to the morning. We don't get a lot of snow here and when we get some, it is dry and blows around a lot leaving some places bare while other form a neat little windrow. I sympathize with your Mom and sometimes don't relish the thought of getting too old where I can't make my own descissions or take care of myself. I know that life is too precious to take lightly so I will take whatever I get and do my best with it. Enjoy the snow and drive carefully.
love always,
Phillis xoxoxoxoxo
Naturally my comment is "how beautiful the snow looks." I have missed seeing it outside my window for way too many years now. Never have gotten used to it not being there like the stubborn old Yankee I am.
Lord only knows what I would do now to wake up each day to winter once more. I am not who I once was so maybe it's better this way after all.
So sorry about your mom and the changes time is bringing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers along with your family.
Barbara
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