Stay Focused on the Prize

The last of the company leaves today. It’s been a full house since March 18th with only one day of grace in between the three different sets of visitors. But it’s been a blast! One of Andree’s sons, two of my daughters and respective grandchildren has made our Easter a memorable one. Things were a bit tricky sometimes. It’s a far cry from entertaining in the big house we used to have but we managed surprisingly well in our humble little abode. It’s not the material things that matter in the end.

Business wise I was hoping to do a big blitz on advertising and getting myself OUT there, pun intended, by the end of March but a look at the calendar tells me I’m not going to make it with only three more days left. It’s been one hiccup after another with the marketing aspects of getting a new business launched, the work I’ve been doing and the work I’ve tried to get help with. I want to do what I love doing not spend hours on end learning how to do websites, business cards, advertising, and on and on it goes. But, bottom line is if I don’t have the people, I don’t have the work. Can’t anything ever be simple?

With working on the marketing, working on my Abnormal Psychology course, the steady stream of company and having to work around other people’s time schedule on this marketing thing, I’m not going to meet my target date of the end of the month but at some point it should all come together anyway. The only thing I can do is to relax and keep focused on the outcome while moving forward one step at a time. Maybe it’s called patience!

Here’s a good thing. I actually have an office now to operate from. Not a typical office with a desk, filing cabinet, a phone all that stuffy “office type stuff. It’s a counselling office with two chairs, a couch, bookcase with books, fountain, lamps with soft lighting, stereo with soft music a sand tray and a few inspiring pictures on the walls. I used it a few times for some clients referred by the school but now I have to get more business generated and obviously that’s only going to happen by doing some marketing. Round and round that ball goes.

I’m feeling really disconnected today. Out of sorts, out of touch. Frustrated. Drab. Like the clouds that are hanging around giving everything an overcast look. I’m wishing I was through the darn key hole instead of half way through still struggling to get to the other side. I can’t think too much about everything I’ve been doing and spending money on in order to get known and to get “OUT there” otherwise I get hung up in fear. I start thinking. What if I’m doing all this for nothing? What if none of this works? What if I’m just digging myself deeper and deeper and I never get this business off the ground? What if, I’m too old for this and it doesn’t get anywhere? I have to turn around and scream at myself. SHUT UP ALREADY!

I have to rein myself back in like a stray horse in order to get back on track and stay centered. Focus on what you want. Focus on what you’re after. Focus on getting there. Focus on the end result. Keep your eye on the prize as George would say!